Letting Go

I've been coming on here now and again to say "I'll post more!" and not done it. To be honest with you bloggy blog that aside from my life being unthinkabley busy right now between work, spending time with my hubby and extending our family (with a dog that is), I have also come to a point that I've let go.

I've let go of the hurt and the embaressment of what I went through with my cervical screening. I've come to a place inside where I feel that to hold on to it is just re-opening the wound - opening up all the anger, the sorrow and all that I feel for how I was (mis)treated, misinformed and the way numerous others are.

Still going about life the organic way and exercising daily to keep healthier and I do want to feel as though  my blog's helped some people out there. Even in the smallest of ways. But for me it's time to stop my fingers dancing across the keys with this tune. It's like an ex boyfriend almost all of this - I look at it now and think "Ha! Soooo glad that's over!" and I don't miss anything about it - it's part of my past.

So all I have to say to anyone that comes across this blog is live, enjoy life and always know you're not alone. After all, what brought you here in the first place is what got me writting this to begin with. Look after yourself and those you love. Life is beautiful and so are you!

x x

Busy...busy...ARRGH!

Hello Blogging World!

It's me, remember me? Well I hope you do cause I've missed you. I have such little time for blogging and feel as though it's become some what of a fourth thought. So what's been up?

Let's see - did all our DIY and that's done and now just waiting to sell, move and get resettled. Work's been a nightmare, been rushed and hectic like you would not believe!

My cat's on heat and attacking my feet.

Just been getting into a real routine of 'good behaviour' and I've been doing good! Started exercising again and I feel fab! Not exercising to loose weight. I have resigned myself to the fact that I will never have a professional trainer and graphic designer to airbrush me so I'm working out to simply be healthy and it's really good, I definietly suggest it to anyone! Lol!

Cat's about to rip my toes off. Damn weird animal! She seems to develop a shoe and foot fetish when she's heaty. It's very odd!

Been sampling loads and I mean loads of organic food and natural beauty products that I am going to start blogging about. And when I say natural beauty products I don't mean the ones that say "Oh there's a fruit in it so that's natural!" No, no, I mean actualt natural - nill to minimal chemicals. Bet you're looking forward to that now! Well, bedtime now so catch up soon!

The Vitamin Masquerade Part III

To get back on track with the entries that I was posting, this is the next part I wanted to go into about vitamins. So what I have been reading is that essentially the sort of vitamins that you should be looking out to buy are ones that are taken from “whole foods” rather than made synthetically. But how do you know the difference? Not like they will say on the label “Hey, I’m a clone and technically a fake!” will they? Here is how…

DIY Quit

Yeah...I think that I am so never doing DIY around the house again! This is just...gruelling! Lol! But I've learnt a few good tricks and maybe I will add some tips on that sometime! ;-P

My lovely readers I am still at it though. Very little time to myself. I mean, every day off I am doing about a dozen things but I do think about my bloggyblog and I will, I will definitely be updating big time when I got some free time.

Stay happy! Happy mind = Happy body and cevix! x x

It's Coming Along

Still so busy! Oh my lordy! Painting, decorating, packing - it just doesn't feel like it's stopping! I miss having time to myself, time to my blog too. There's so much that I want to update and start of March I am going to. I need a day off so I'm giving myself one! A day off to blog! Huzzah!

Be Right Back

There has been a lot going on for me and the hubby recently. Everything is all over the place as we're decorating and getting ready to move home. Now now, I am not neglecting you - I will be back! We just have some house viewings to get out the way, some packing to do then I can follow more stuff up with a clear head rather than being rushed.

So I will update soon with The Vitamin Masquerade Part III and get all that info in about how to spot your real vitamins from your synthetic, do some organic food reviews and lots more!

Love your cervix! Love your body and be kind to your mind! xx

My Plea

I beg you ladies if you feel that something is not right for you DO NOT let ANYONE bully you to do what they want! Sure you may think your doctor knows it all but if something is not sitting right and you don’t feel confidence in what you are being told it is your right to question, your right to decide what advice you do and don’t use, it’s yours to get information and your right over your body!

It is your body, mind and cervix and if you feel someone is going to use it, manipulate it in anyway then I implore you, stand your ground for what you feel is the correct choices for yourself! That doctor won’t be there if they mess things up, that nurse won’t be there when you need a shoulder to cry on.

I am not saying don’t get checks, I think you should as it is good to know what’s going on with yourself but please make informative choices for yourself, for your life!

Love to you all, peace to your mind and wellness to your body, mind and cervix.

Clover xx

Cancelling An Appointment - How Hard Can It Be?

Got a reminder letter from the hospital today about the booking they auto booked me for to have my cervix sliced at. Not a nice way to put it but it’s not a nice thing! I have to be honest that I have been putting off calling. From that initial colposcopy appointment and knowing their view and attitude on things I was not looking forward to talking to anyone in that department. I knew they would try pressure play to get me to keep the appointment and try effectively bullying me into going.

Thankfully when I rang I got the answer phone so I left a message and that was that! So I thought! Till I got a call back and very fast I must add from The Secretary of The Specialist I’d seen. By fast I mean literally within 6 minutes of me cancelling the appointment as well as saying in the message I have no intention of rescheduling one. How did the call go? As I thought! All pressure and full on! The amount of cutting me off and talking over me that this lady did was all a bid to spam me with “fearfearfearfearfear don’t think just be scared come do what we say”. I think it’s disgusting! Again, this is another thing I worry about is how many women that this has worked on!  Here it is how the call went:-

The Vitamin Masquerade Part II

To understand what’s in the bottle you need to know how it’s made. If you don’t want to be bored with the technicalities of why your vitamins are not ‘real’ (for want of a better word) and you want to know how to spot the posers from the natural beauties then you can skip past this post and just go have a look at the next blog entry. For those more curious sorts you best make a cuppa and click read more for the what's-what-where.

The Vitamin Masquerade

All right, to be honest with you I had a feeling that I would find this out. Just about everything we know is not a ‘true form’ or from a ‘true source’ and synthetics are all around us. So why not synthesise vitamins and minerals right? What makes me ponder is the fact that we can do that – mimic and structure something how we want it, engineer it – but how have we not come up with replicators like they have in Startrek? Now that would be handy! Anyway, sorry, off on a tangent there…

The point being that all the Holland and Barrett vitamins I bought (around £80 worth) are binned. In my bid to keep away from unnatural ingredients it’s something I had to do. I cringed as the tablets fell into the bin but I am ‘organified’ (my own term here) remember. What to do now? I need supplements and sure, I do eat very well, I love fruit and veg but just need that top up. Back to researching for me and I found out a lot of stuff about what goes in to what we think are vitamins that’ll keep us happy and healthy yet, quite possibly, don’t and if anything make us less healthy (though a less happy factors not been measured).

I’m looking into a company right now that makes vitamins from whole foods. Rather than ‘isolating’ the vitamin or creating it in a lab or a petri dish (the two ways that many are made) this company essentially extracts the vitamins from the whole food and doesn’t alter it chemically or biologically. So loads of researching to do – updates when I have them bloggyblog!